Tired

One of the reasons why i don't like what i'm doing is because i cannot do what i like, at my own pace. Everything always ends up in a lot of problems, and through sheer determination and with the help of some friends and with also what is the most probably the greatest helper God, i always manage to pull a stunt and somehow tide through all the shit.

For their results, like i say, their problem. Not mine, mine has passed and i'm just doing a job. Fulfilling my duty.

The only part of the problem which is mine is probably my lack of sense for my own limits, in other words, my health. Well, i usually pace myself to the extreme. I'm not exactly an extremist, but i plan in time for play and work and rest. So usually 24hrs is not enough. I don't like to cut down on spending time, so? spending future time credits? LOL.

Not like i have a lot of time, i believe i won't be able to pass my 55th birthdae with nothing serious happening to me... If i'm still around it'll probably be a combination of many miracles.. well, i juz hope i won't be too much of a bother to too many people by then.. xD

The nose started bleeding again today. The 3rd or 2nd time in a time span of a about a month. Most probably 2nd time, ok, can't remember. Shoulders feel damm extremely cramped and it feels like a lump of stone if i touch the muscles. Its a little sore, and the entire left arm.. well still has a little bit of feeling in it, so... still good.

Heartburns over the span of 3 days... and i'm still feeling it. I should probably throw in the towel and take a break, but its impossible.. with their exams coming up and me not having finished the teaching part... how to become sick? Well, i already got one confirmed sick day, which i'm surely going to get a shelling from my doc for missing out my meds, but what to do, she tells me not to take my meds unless my cough clears... and my cough never cleared... since 4 months ago?


I'll try to update, if i'm ever feeling this emo again. Happy or stressed out. These extremes are usually what i'll be blogging about. Though more of the stressed out part.

On a more cheery note, my bro's 21st is coming up, and i feel excited for him.. even though he's going to be sailing on his bdae. I think i'm more excited for his birthdays than my own.. xD

I was actually quite happy and surprised when he asked me if i could join him in his korea trip... i didn't think he would want me to come along. It's really too bad i have school commitments. If he juz could have asked during the june holidays... i might have been able to go. Really wanted to go with him.. >_<
Don't really know what he thinks about his sis, but at least now i know it's not bad... We used to hate each others guts when we were little and had quarreled and fought a lot.

Haiz, at least i'll be sponsoring him his travel insurance and his bdae cake. Hope he will enjoy his 21st birthdae when he's sailing... looking forward to this sunday.. i'll be getting the cake and some other stuff over i guess. =D